1 00:00:27,631 --> 00:00:30,673 What happens in a month, six months, a year? 2 00:00:30,756 --> 00:00:33,422 When she tells you she just wants to be friends? 3 00:00:34,130 --> 00:00:36,589 Nate, why would I do a single thing for you? 4 00:00:37,047 --> 00:00:38,255 'Cause I'll put you in jail. 5 00:00:38,923 --> 00:00:40,506 I need you to get in your car and drive down 6 00:00:40,589 --> 00:00:41,798 to the East Island police station. 7 00:00:41,881 --> 00:00:43,506 You're going to walk up to the receptionist, 8 00:00:43,589 --> 00:00:45,798 and you're gonna tell her you'd like to confess to a crime. 9 00:00:45,881 --> 00:00:46,923 Do you recognize that man? 10 00:00:47,255 --> 00:00:49,673 He's the guy who assaulted me the night of the carnival. 11 00:00:51,964 --> 00:00:53,422 Can you please get out of the pool? 12 00:00:53,506 --> 00:00:56,130 This whole town is so fucking boring. 13 00:01:00,631 --> 00:01:03,714 I'm a burden, and it is what it is and it's embarrassing 14 00:01:03,798 --> 00:01:04,923 so I'm sorry. 15 00:01:06,297 --> 00:01:08,339 No funny business, Christopher! 16 00:01:13,130 --> 00:01:14,089 Fuck. 17 00:01:29,798 --> 00:01:32,506 Cassie's dad was really handsome. 18 00:01:32,589 --> 00:01:36,673 The kind of handsome that made people treat him differently. 19 00:01:39,381 --> 00:01:42,839 ♪ I gave my heart and soul to you, girl... ♪ 20 00:01:42,923 --> 00:01:45,881 Her mom used to get really upset at him for flirting. 21 00:01:45,964 --> 00:01:47,839 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 22 00:01:47,923 --> 00:01:50,756 - Which wasn't fair. - It wasn't his fault. 23 00:01:50,839 --> 00:01:52,839 He really loved her. 24 00:01:54,005 --> 00:01:56,130 He really loved them all. 25 00:01:56,214 --> 00:01:59,881 ♪ ...you never knew girl, oh ♪ 26 00:01:59,964 --> 00:02:02,047 ♪ Didn't I do it, baby ♪ 27 00:02:02,130 --> 00:02:05,589 Her dad always wanted her to become a professional ice skater. 28 00:02:05,673 --> 00:02:07,756 Wow. Thank you! 29 00:02:07,839 --> 00:02:09,714 Aw, happy birthday, kiddo. 30 00:02:09,798 --> 00:02:12,464 And for a while, she thought she might. 31 00:02:12,547 --> 00:02:13,798 She was a natural. 32 00:02:13,881 --> 00:02:16,381 ♪ It seems to make you laugh ♪ 33 00:02:16,464 --> 00:02:17,714 ♪ Each time I cry ♪ 34 00:02:17,798 --> 00:02:19,464 But her dad couldn't afford lessons, 35 00:02:19,547 --> 00:02:22,631 so he stopped encouraging her. 36 00:02:22,714 --> 00:02:25,631 When she hit puberty, her mother and her became best friends. 37 00:02:25,714 --> 00:02:27,756 You're an angel. 38 00:02:29,422 --> 00:02:31,881 I feel like a big baby. 39 00:02:32,756 --> 00:02:36,714 Cassie, woman to woman, hmm? 40 00:02:36,798 --> 00:02:38,631 You're perfect. 41 00:02:38,714 --> 00:02:40,881 ♪ I thought that heart of yours was true, girl ♪ 42 00:02:42,089 --> 00:02:44,297 ♪ Now didn't I think it, baby ♪ 43 00:02:44,381 --> 00:02:47,422 - Holy moly, look at you. - What? 44 00:02:48,214 --> 00:02:50,923 You're gonna be a real heart breaker. 45 00:02:51,005 --> 00:02:52,756 Trust me. 46 00:02:52,839 --> 00:02:54,964 And it wasn't just her body that changed. 47 00:02:55,047 --> 00:02:56,339 But the rest of the world, too. 48 00:02:56,422 --> 00:02:57,589 You remember Uncle Ted? 49 00:02:57,673 --> 00:02:59,673 Oh, boy, look at you. All grown up. 50 00:02:59,756 --> 00:03:01,339 Come on, give me a hug. 51 00:03:01,422 --> 00:03:05,589 - You really filled out. - Sassy Cassie. Come here. 52 00:03:05,673 --> 00:03:09,172 I bet you got all the boys wrapped around your finger. 53 00:03:09,255 --> 00:03:10,631 Boop. 54 00:03:12,422 --> 00:03:14,172 Their family wasn't perfect. 55 00:03:16,339 --> 00:03:19,339 Her mom had, you know, some issues. 56 00:03:19,422 --> 00:03:22,130 Oh, my God. 57 00:03:22,214 --> 00:03:24,964 And her dad struggled to keep a steady income. 58 00:03:25,047 --> 00:03:28,297 ♪ Everywhere I go ♪ 59 00:03:28,381 --> 00:03:29,402 ♪ Eli's a comin' ♪ 60 00:03:29,413 --> 00:03:31,557 ♪ She walked, but she never got away ♪ 61 00:03:31,631 --> 00:03:32,662 ♪ Eli's a comin' ♪ 62 00:03:32,673 --> 00:03:34,683 ♪ She walked, but she never got away ♪ 63 00:03:36,214 --> 00:03:37,881 - Fuck you. - This is my family... 64 00:03:37,964 --> 00:03:40,589 And they fought. 65 00:03:40,673 --> 00:03:43,631 In the way all parents kind of fight. 66 00:03:46,422 --> 00:03:49,631 Except for the night before she started ninth grade. 67 00:04:05,339 --> 00:04:09,047 Her mom told her that her dad was just being irrational. 68 00:04:09,130 --> 00:04:12,547 Your father had some serious jealousy issues. 69 00:04:12,631 --> 00:04:14,547 Let me tell you. 70 00:04:14,631 --> 00:04:17,381 Plus, he couldn't hold a steady job to save his life. 71 00:04:17,464 --> 00:04:21,464 I just think he didn't want the responsibility of being a father. 72 00:04:23,464 --> 00:04:26,214 It's too much work. 73 00:04:26,297 --> 00:04:28,589 But Cassie had heard differently. 74 00:04:28,673 --> 00:04:30,964 My mom said your mom cheated on your dad. 75 00:04:31,047 --> 00:04:33,005 And that's why he left. 76 00:04:33,089 --> 00:04:34,839 What? 77 00:04:41,714 --> 00:04:44,464 At first, she was really angry at her mom. 78 00:04:44,547 --> 00:04:47,714 She resented her for being such a hypocrite. 79 00:04:53,673 --> 00:04:57,547 But then she realized that her dad wasn't perfect. 80 00:04:57,631 --> 00:04:59,464 I don't know if I want to be associated with herpes 81 00:04:59,547 --> 00:05:00,673 but, you know... 82 00:05:00,756 --> 00:05:02,255 And her mom wasn't either, 83 00:05:02,339 --> 00:05:05,047 and maybe they just weren't right for each other. 84 00:05:09,422 --> 00:05:12,255 He used to visit them on weekends. 85 00:05:12,339 --> 00:05:14,089 Bye, Dad. 86 00:05:17,673 --> 00:05:19,381 - Bye, Dad. - But, eventually, 87 00:05:19,464 --> 00:05:21,381 it became once every couple of weeks. 88 00:05:23,381 --> 00:05:25,130 He said he was coming. 89 00:05:25,214 --> 00:05:28,172 And then sometimes, more than a month would go by. 90 00:05:33,589 --> 00:05:35,839 Then one night... 91 00:05:35,923 --> 00:05:38,255 ...he was driving home from work... 92 00:05:43,089 --> 00:05:45,589 ...and was in the ICU for 23 days. 93 00:05:47,005 --> 00:05:50,089 The doctors were afraid he'd never walk again. 94 00:05:52,464 --> 00:05:55,089 But Cassie knew he was strong, and that he'd get better. 95 00:06:00,214 --> 00:06:02,631 He was prescribed fentanyl for pain. 96 00:06:03,631 --> 00:06:06,297 Promethazine to offset the nausea. 97 00:06:06,381 --> 00:06:07,964 Liquid Lorazepam to sleep, 98 00:06:08,047 --> 00:06:10,589 and Imitrex injections for migraines. 99 00:06:17,422 --> 00:06:20,547 Cassie would text him and talk to him. 100 00:06:23,964 --> 00:06:27,297 But as more time went by, the less responsive he became. 101 00:06:28,756 --> 00:06:30,214 And eventually, months went by, 102 00:06:30,297 --> 00:06:33,089 and she didn't hear from him at all. 103 00:06:33,172 --> 00:06:36,297 Until one night, a week after her 15th birthday, 104 00:06:36,381 --> 00:06:40,464 she got a text from a random number at about 1:00 in the morning. 105 00:06:55,714 --> 00:06:58,464 And even though she was excited to see him 106 00:06:58,547 --> 00:07:00,047 and wanted to hug him, 107 00:07:00,130 --> 00:07:03,214 there was something about the whole thing that scared her. 108 00:07:03,297 --> 00:07:05,130 I want you to know there's never a day goes by 109 00:07:05,214 --> 00:07:06,839 I don't think about you. 110 00:07:08,047 --> 00:07:10,798 The number you texted me from. 111 00:07:11,673 --> 00:07:13,506 Can I call you? 112 00:07:15,964 --> 00:07:18,214 That's my friend's phone. 113 00:07:18,297 --> 00:07:21,714 But I promise I'll reach you to you with my new number, I... 114 00:07:23,506 --> 00:07:26,005 Don't cry, baby. 115 00:07:27,172 --> 00:07:29,673 I'm okay. I'm fine. Don't... 116 00:07:31,881 --> 00:07:34,839 I just miss you, Dad. 117 00:07:36,714 --> 00:07:39,506 I miss you, okay. I love you. 118 00:07:45,339 --> 00:07:47,255 He said he needed a few things, 119 00:07:47,339 --> 00:07:50,339 and made her promise that she wouldn't tell a soul. 120 00:08:13,547 --> 00:08:14,923 Cassie kept her promise, 121 00:08:15,005 --> 00:08:17,839 and never told anyone about that night. 122 00:08:17,923 --> 00:08:22,089 She also never saw her dad again. 123 00:08:22,172 --> 00:08:25,172 She fell in love with every guy she ever dated. 124 00:08:26,506 --> 00:08:28,255 Whether they were smart or stupid 125 00:08:28,339 --> 00:08:30,756 or sweet or cruel, it didn't matter. 126 00:08:47,089 --> 00:08:49,297 She didn't like to be alone. 127 00:08:50,047 --> 00:08:53,631 - What are you doing? - I'm just filming you. 128 00:08:54,255 --> 00:08:55,673 Why? 129 00:08:55,756 --> 00:08:59,172 And every guy she ever dated asked for the same things. 130 00:08:59,255 --> 00:09:02,589 - Can I film you sucking my dick? - What? No! 131 00:09:02,673 --> 00:09:05,464 - What? Stop. - Let's make a sex tape. 132 00:09:05,547 --> 00:09:09,089 What? Get out of here. Come on. I won't tell anyone. 133 00:09:09,172 --> 00:09:10,839 - It's not that big of a deal. - Yes, it is. 134 00:09:10,923 --> 00:09:12,047 I don't wanna do this. 135 00:09:12,130 --> 00:09:13,964 And she almost always said yes. 136 00:09:14,047 --> 00:09:16,297 Even though it didn't always make her feel good. 137 00:09:19,631 --> 00:09:22,381 And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them, 138 00:09:22,464 --> 00:09:24,547 would always share those photos or videos. 139 00:09:26,130 --> 00:09:29,005 The first time she found out, she had a panic attack, 140 00:09:29,089 --> 00:09:31,964 and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol. 141 00:09:33,547 --> 00:09:35,339 But she didn't. Because, I mean, 142 00:09:35,422 --> 00:09:37,130 what's the worst thing anybody could say to her? 143 00:09:37,214 --> 00:09:39,881 That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it? 144 00:09:39,964 --> 00:09:42,172 And she figured by the time she was out of college 145 00:09:42,255 --> 00:09:44,214 and looking for a job, 99 percent of the population 146 00:09:44,297 --> 00:09:46,631 would have leaked nudes, anyway. 147 00:09:49,631 --> 00:09:52,339 And then, at the beginning of the year, she met McKay. 148 00:09:52,422 --> 00:09:54,464 And fell in love with him. 149 00:09:54,547 --> 00:09:56,547 And he fell in love with her. 150 00:09:56,631 --> 00:09:59,214 I love you. And even though things weren't perfect, 151 00:09:59,297 --> 00:10:01,589 he loved her for who she was. 152 00:10:01,673 --> 00:10:03,589 And even though she had made a couple of mistakes, 153 00:10:03,673 --> 00:10:05,089 I mean, they weren't big ones. 154 00:10:05,172 --> 00:10:07,589 They weren't the kind of things you couldn't come back from. 155 00:10:07,673 --> 00:10:11,839 ♪ Don't you know being so close ♪ 156 00:10:11,923 --> 00:10:13,964 ♪ To the edge ♪ 157 00:10:15,381 --> 00:10:18,547 ♪ When you are near me ♪ 158 00:10:20,047 --> 00:10:23,506 ♪ Ooh aah ♪ 159 00:10:45,381 --> 00:10:48,589 Previously on Love Island ... 160 00:10:48,673 --> 00:10:51,756 G rab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh 161 00:10:51,839 --> 00:10:53,297 by the balls. 162 00:10:53,381 --> 00:10:56,756 People are always telling me about great TV shows. 163 00:10:56,839 --> 00:10:59,130 How I just have to watch this show. 164 00:10:59,214 --> 00:11:02,756 But the truth is, I don't want good TV. 165 00:11:02,839 --> 00:11:04,798 I don't want a novel, or some slow burn, 166 00:11:04,881 --> 00:11:06,798 or anything that feels like work. 167 00:11:06,881 --> 00:11:08,547 That's why I love reality TV. 168 00:11:08,631 --> 00:11:12,339 It's funny, it's dramatic, and I can focus on it. 169 00:11:12,422 --> 00:11:15,297 It's pure, effortless entertainment. 170 00:11:16,589 --> 00:11:19,839 Romance hits the rocks. 171 00:11:19,923 --> 00:11:22,005 She doesn't talk to me, she doesn't acknowledge me. 172 00:11:22,089 --> 00:11:24,047 - She's playing a game. - Honestly... 173 00:11:24,130 --> 00:11:25,339 I want to lay down one moment 174 00:11:25,422 --> 00:11:27,005 and then look around the next 175 00:11:27,089 --> 00:11:28,464 and realize I have watched 176 00:11:28,547 --> 00:11:30,214 22 straight hours of Love Island 177 00:11:30,297 --> 00:11:31,839 over a two-day period... 178 00:11:31,923 --> 00:11:35,506 ...and yearn for more. 179 00:11:35,589 --> 00:11:38,673 Some people may find that depressing. 180 00:11:38,756 --> 00:11:40,589 I don't. 181 00:11:43,422 --> 00:11:46,381 It is, however, a good way to measure depression. 182 00:11:46,464 --> 00:11:49,172 Because when reality TV begins to feel like work, 183 00:11:49,255 --> 00:11:51,964 like, final season of Mad Men work, 184 00:11:52,047 --> 00:11:54,464 you know you're depressed. 185 00:11:54,547 --> 00:11:59,339 Like, haven't got out of bed to pee in 24 hours depressed. 186 00:12:08,089 --> 00:12:10,089 Do I look different to you? 187 00:12:10,923 --> 00:12:12,547 You look fine to me. 188 00:12:12,631 --> 00:12:14,714 'Cause I feel different. 189 00:12:14,798 --> 00:12:16,756 Okay, well, you don't look it. 190 00:12:17,673 --> 00:12:19,839 I don't think I'm gonna go to school today. 191 00:12:19,923 --> 00:12:24,130 - 'Cause of Daniel? - No, not 'cause of Daniel, Lexi! 192 00:12:24,214 --> 00:12:26,464 Daniel's the last fucking thing I care about right now. 193 00:12:26,547 --> 00:12:28,297 Okay, well, it's all you ever fucking talk about. 194 00:12:28,381 --> 00:12:32,089 That's not true! I asked you how I look. Not about Daniel! 195 00:12:32,172 --> 00:12:33,923 Yeah, well, you look beautiful, Cassie. 196 00:12:34,005 --> 00:12:35,214 You look fucking amazing. 197 00:12:35,297 --> 00:12:37,005 It's literally all anyone's ever told you 198 00:12:37,089 --> 00:12:38,255 your entire life. 199 00:12:38,339 --> 00:12:41,506 Like, listen to yourself. It's fucking exhausting. 200 00:13:08,839 --> 00:13:10,923 The thought of having to stand up, 201 00:13:11,005 --> 00:13:15,506 exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet, 202 00:13:15,589 --> 00:13:18,464 just so I can sit on cold porcelain and piss out toxins 203 00:13:18,547 --> 00:13:21,255 over and over again for the rest of my life 204 00:13:21,339 --> 00:13:23,381 makes the whole concept of living 205 00:13:23,464 --> 00:13:26,673 feel like one long, sadistic joke. 206 00:13:28,381 --> 00:13:31,839 But the absolute worst part of depression 207 00:13:31,923 --> 00:13:34,130 is that even though you know you're depressed, 208 00:13:34,214 --> 00:13:37,547 you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse. 209 00:13:39,381 --> 00:13:42,547 But I wasn't the only one feeling down. 210 00:13:44,589 --> 00:13:47,714 Jules? What's wrong? 211 00:13:47,798 --> 00:13:52,214 - I'm sick. - Okay. Let me know if you need anything. 212 00:13:53,923 --> 00:13:55,464 After Halloween, 213 00:13:55,547 --> 00:13:58,047 Jules didn't go to school for a full week. 214 00:14:01,464 --> 00:14:05,297 And even though I sent her about 50 texts, she didn't respond. 215 00:14:05,756 --> 00:14:07,506 Happy Halloween. 216 00:14:07,589 --> 00:14:10,255 I could tell something bad had happened. 217 00:14:10,339 --> 00:14:12,923 And that it had something to do with Nate. 218 00:14:21,047 --> 00:14:24,464 Tyler Clarkson was booked for assault. 219 00:14:26,756 --> 00:14:31,089 But this shit wasn't adding up. 220 00:14:31,172 --> 00:14:33,881 And I was putting together the pieces of the puzzle. 221 00:14:33,964 --> 00:14:37,214 Howard, let's roll. 222 00:14:37,297 --> 00:14:40,422 I wasn't gonna stop until I got the truth. 223 00:14:42,339 --> 00:14:44,673 False accusations in today's world 224 00:14:44,756 --> 00:14:46,506 can cause serious long-term damage 225 00:14:46,589 --> 00:14:50,130 to one's career, reputation, and emotional well-being. 226 00:14:52,798 --> 00:14:55,547 We all owe Nate Jacobs a heartfelt apology, 227 00:14:55,631 --> 00:14:56,923 and are excited and thrilled 228 00:14:57,005 --> 00:14:59,798 to have him back at East Highland. 229 00:14:59,881 --> 00:15:01,964 Why would Jules lie to help Nate? 230 00:15:02,047 --> 00:15:03,214 I don't know. 231 00:15:03,297 --> 00:15:06,089 - Well, have you asked her about it? - No. 232 00:15:06,172 --> 00:15:08,172 - You haven't asked her? - No. 233 00:15:08,255 --> 00:15:10,130 Keep looking, you mook. 234 00:15:10,214 --> 00:15:14,214 I'm Morgan fuckin' Freeman and this is the beginning of the third act. 235 00:15:14,297 --> 00:15:17,130 Well, doesn't that seem like the first logical step? 236 00:15:18,756 --> 00:15:22,047 Honestly, Howard, this whole thing is beyond logic. 237 00:15:22,130 --> 00:15:24,881 Unless... 238 00:15:27,547 --> 00:15:29,005 Jules is in love with Nate. 239 00:15:29,422 --> 00:15:32,381 Why would Jules be in love with Nate? You should listen to me. 240 00:15:32,464 --> 00:15:34,631 - Bennett, the cigarettes are killing me. - Hear me out. Listen. Listen. 241 00:15:34,714 --> 00:15:36,589 Listen, the night of the carnival, she said she wanted 242 00:15:36,673 --> 00:15:38,506 to go meet up with this guy she met online, okay? 243 00:15:38,589 --> 00:15:41,130 He's some fuckin' jock, he's from a conservative family, 244 00:15:41,214 --> 00:15:43,297 and they were talking and texting. 245 00:15:43,381 --> 00:15:45,005 They've been texting for weeks. 246 00:15:45,089 --> 00:15:48,422 And when I say texting, I don't just mean regular fuckin' texting. 247 00:15:48,506 --> 00:15:51,464 They were sexting. 248 00:15:51,547 --> 00:15:55,381 - Like nudes? - Yeah. Side note, 249 00:15:55,464 --> 00:15:57,506 very nice dick. Very clean room. 250 00:15:57,589 --> 00:15:58,923 Oh. 251 00:15:59,005 --> 00:16:00,839 She never fucking say his face. 252 00:16:00,923 --> 00:16:03,089 Yeah, so Jules is catfished. 253 00:16:03,172 --> 00:16:04,839 Now hear me out. So the night of the carnival, 254 00:16:04,923 --> 00:16:06,047 she made plans with this guy 255 00:16:06,130 --> 00:16:07,464 to meet up with him at the lake, okay? 256 00:16:07,547 --> 00:16:09,130 I fucking go home. Next thing I know... 257 00:16:09,214 --> 00:16:11,172 ...she's fucking knocking at my window. 258 00:16:11,255 --> 00:16:12,589 She's all emotional, 259 00:16:12,673 --> 00:16:14,047 she's got fucking tears in her eyes. 260 00:16:14,130 --> 00:16:16,881 I say, Jules, what the fuck happened? 261 00:16:16,964 --> 00:16:19,089 She looks at me. She goes... 262 00:16:19,839 --> 00:16:22,130 "He didn't look like his pictures." 263 00:16:22,714 --> 00:16:25,172 Yeah, that's like, the definition of catfishing. 264 00:16:25,255 --> 00:16:27,673 No, but do you know what his name was? 265 00:16:28,464 --> 00:16:31,214 - Nate Jacobs? - Tyler. 266 00:16:33,381 --> 00:16:36,005 Like, Tyler Clarkson? 267 00:16:37,506 --> 00:16:39,798 You're goddamned right. 268 00:16:40,381 --> 00:16:44,130 Maddy is 17, Tyler's 22, and they fornicated. 269 00:16:44,214 --> 00:16:45,224 Statutory. 270 00:16:45,235 --> 00:16:48,265 Yeah. You saw it, I saw it. We all fucking saw it. 271 00:16:48,339 --> 00:16:49,317 Including Nate. 272 00:16:49,328 --> 00:16:51,974 And what is a lighter offense than statutory? 273 00:16:52,047 --> 00:16:53,589 Assault. 274 00:16:53,673 --> 00:16:55,589 Bingo! 275 00:16:58,756 --> 00:17:01,255 Rue, are you pouring coffee in the water filter? 276 00:17:01,339 --> 00:17:03,130 - Yes, I am. - Instead of water? 277 00:17:03,214 --> 00:17:04,756 - Yes, I am. - Well, please, don't do that. 278 00:17:04,839 --> 00:17:07,589 And it's late. You shouldn't be drinking caffeine. 279 00:17:07,673 --> 00:17:10,172 Mom, please. I have homework. 280 00:17:10,255 --> 00:17:12,881 Well, there's a sentence I never thought I'd hear. 281 00:17:15,506 --> 00:17:17,714 Will you let me know when this is ready? 282 00:17:19,172 --> 00:17:21,297 Hello? 283 00:17:21,381 --> 00:17:22,964 Howard, it's Bennett. 284 00:17:23,047 --> 00:17:25,381 It's 2:45 in the morning. Don't you ever sleep? 285 00:17:25,464 --> 00:17:29,089 Listen, why would Nate single out Jules in the first place? 286 00:17:29,172 --> 00:17:31,923 It's obvious he was sexually attracted to her. 287 00:17:33,923 --> 00:17:36,923 And because Jules is predominantly het, okay, 288 00:17:37,005 --> 00:17:40,381 he wooed her with his, uh, fucking creepy jock magic shit. 289 00:17:40,464 --> 00:17:42,881 She's super fuckin' sensitive, she's very forgiving, 290 00:17:42,964 --> 00:17:46,714 and she's basically the most wonderful fucking person on the planet... 291 00:17:46,798 --> 00:17:48,631 she fell for him. 292 00:17:48,714 --> 00:17:50,798 That's why she fucking testified. 293 00:17:50,881 --> 00:17:53,881 I'm a genius. I'm a fucking genius. 294 00:17:53,964 --> 00:17:56,673 Hey, Mom! I'm a fucking genius. 295 00:17:57,964 --> 00:17:59,506 I'm not even tired. It's crazy. 296 00:17:59,589 --> 00:18:01,130 I'm not even fucking tired. 297 00:18:01,214 --> 00:18:02,547 I feel amazing. 298 00:18:02,631 --> 00:18:05,047 I'll be honest with you, Bennett. 299 00:18:05,130 --> 00:18:06,839 You're too close to this case. 300 00:18:18,464 --> 00:18:21,464 - Who was that? - Rue. 301 00:18:22,381 --> 00:18:26,839 Think she's in, like, a manic state. Is she okay? 302 00:18:28,089 --> 00:18:30,047 I don't think so. 303 00:18:43,422 --> 00:18:45,839 Fuck. 304 00:18:56,130 --> 00:18:58,631 I don't know what you're gonna say, but this feels like... 305 00:18:58,714 --> 00:19:00,923 really dramatic. 306 00:19:01,005 --> 00:19:03,255 Yeah, this is spooky. 307 00:19:03,339 --> 00:19:05,714 It is not spooky, BB. 308 00:19:06,381 --> 00:19:10,297 I just, I need your advice on, like, two things. 309 00:19:10,381 --> 00:19:14,089 And I need you guys to promise me not to say a single fucking word. 310 00:19:17,547 --> 00:19:21,464 So, the night of Daniel's Halloween party, 311 00:19:21,547 --> 00:19:23,881 something happened. 312 00:19:34,255 --> 00:19:37,130 I don't usually come that fast. 313 00:19:39,047 --> 00:19:41,089 That was amazing. 314 00:19:42,798 --> 00:19:45,881 It's funny. I always thought I was gonna lose my virginity to you. 315 00:19:49,756 --> 00:19:53,798 - You're a virgin? - No, I mean, when we were younger. 316 00:19:53,881 --> 00:19:57,589 - When we dated. - We dated? 317 00:19:59,589 --> 00:20:01,547 Yeah, in sixth grade. 318 00:20:03,297 --> 00:20:04,798 You and me? 319 00:20:05,589 --> 00:20:08,589 Yeah, for like five months. 320 00:20:10,130 --> 00:20:11,631 Oh. 321 00:20:12,214 --> 00:20:15,964 I literally have no recollection of that. 322 00:20:20,297 --> 00:20:22,506 Wait. Am I hearing this correctly? 323 00:20:22,589 --> 00:20:24,756 You want to tell McKay that you made out with Daniel 324 00:20:24,839 --> 00:20:26,631 at the carnival and on Halloween? 325 00:20:26,714 --> 00:20:28,756 Yeah, but, I don't... I don't have to say it's Daniel. 326 00:20:28,839 --> 00:20:31,547 Bitch, that's the craziest idea I've ever heard. Right? 327 00:20:31,631 --> 00:20:32,881 For sure. 328 00:20:32,964 --> 00:20:36,506 Yeah, but I want to be honest with him. 329 00:20:37,464 --> 00:20:40,964 - You cannot tell McKay. - But it's not like I cheated-cheated. 330 00:20:41,047 --> 00:20:44,047 Kissing is worse. It's so much more intimate. 331 00:20:44,130 --> 00:20:47,297 And if anybody brings it up, you deny, deny, deny. 332 00:20:47,381 --> 00:20:49,130 Okay, but, I just... I don't want there to be 333 00:20:49,214 --> 00:20:50,631 something this bad between us forever. 334 00:20:50,714 --> 00:20:52,381 I wouldn't worry about it, Cassie. It's not like 335 00:20:52,464 --> 00:20:54,381 you guys are gonna be together forever. 336 00:20:54,464 --> 00:20:56,506 Kat, what the fuck is your problem? 337 00:20:56,589 --> 00:20:59,130 You're being a bad friend now. You were a bad friend to me, 338 00:20:59,214 --> 00:21:02,255 and this whole new personality is seriously unlikable. 339 00:21:02,339 --> 00:21:03,756 World Star! 340 00:21:03,839 --> 00:21:05,422 Why, because I won't sit and listen to you bitch and moan 341 00:21:05,506 --> 00:21:07,422 about your psychotic, abusive boyfriend 342 00:21:07,506 --> 00:21:09,714 who you've literally broken up with a thousand times? 343 00:21:09,798 --> 00:21:12,798 It was literally the lowest point in my life, so, yeah. 344 00:21:12,881 --> 00:21:15,005 That and the fact that you're just fuckin' mean. 345 00:21:15,089 --> 00:21:17,506 Maddy, ever since I've met you, all you talk about is yourself. 346 00:21:17,589 --> 00:21:19,881 Your clothes, your boyfriends, whatever superficial shit 347 00:21:19,964 --> 00:21:21,589 you think is so fucking important. 348 00:21:21,673 --> 00:21:23,255 Sorry I'm no longer interested. 349 00:21:23,339 --> 00:21:26,214 I don't know about everyone else, but I miss the old Kat. 350 00:21:26,297 --> 00:21:28,047 You know, the one who had a sense of humor 351 00:21:28,130 --> 00:21:30,047 and wasn't a fuckin' cunt? 352 00:21:30,130 --> 00:21:31,839 Damn. 353 00:22:06,172 --> 00:22:07,964 What was the other thing? 354 00:22:08,047 --> 00:22:09,964 What other thing? 355 00:22:10,047 --> 00:22:13,047 You said you needed advice on two things. 356 00:22:14,798 --> 00:22:16,506 I don't remember. 357 00:22:17,798 --> 00:22:19,547 What would you do? 358 00:22:20,881 --> 00:22:23,005 Um, I don't know. 359 00:22:23,089 --> 00:22:24,923 I've never really been in a situation 360 00:22:25,005 --> 00:22:27,297 where two guys have been interested in me. 361 00:22:27,381 --> 00:22:29,589 That's 'cause you're shy. 362 00:22:30,506 --> 00:22:33,839 I guess so, but I've also never been in a situation 363 00:22:33,923 --> 00:22:35,839 where I've been interested in two guys. 364 00:22:35,923 --> 00:22:38,047 That's also 'cause you're shy. 365 00:22:38,631 --> 00:22:40,381 Maybe. 366 00:22:41,005 --> 00:22:43,923 But if you were in my situation, what would you do? 367 00:22:46,255 --> 00:22:49,255 Honestly, I don't think I would say anything. 368 00:22:52,464 --> 00:22:55,881 What if not saying something makes you feel really bad? 369 00:22:57,255 --> 00:22:59,255 Worse than saying it? 370 00:23:00,506 --> 00:23:01,881 Yeah. 371 00:23:03,923 --> 00:23:07,464 Well, then, I don't think you have any other option. 372 00:23:23,214 --> 00:23:25,255 How are you feeling? 373 00:23:25,631 --> 00:23:28,547 Uh, I think I have the flu or something. 374 00:23:28,964 --> 00:23:30,714 You want me to get you something? 375 00:23:30,798 --> 00:23:34,339 - Something to drink, or something... - Uh, no, I'm good. 376 00:23:39,881 --> 00:23:42,339 You sure you got the flu, Rue? 377 00:23:44,089 --> 00:23:45,255 Gia, right now I just need you 378 00:23:45,339 --> 00:23:47,005 to leave me the fuck alone, all right? 379 00:23:58,255 --> 00:24:01,673 Previously... 380 00:24:09,881 --> 00:24:13,214 Look, Nate, we all make mistakes in life. 381 00:24:14,130 --> 00:24:15,673 We hurt the ones we love. 382 00:24:15,756 --> 00:24:18,005 We let down our friends, our family. 383 00:24:19,089 --> 00:24:20,714 Sometimes we do it out of ignorance. 384 00:24:20,798 --> 00:24:22,964 Sometimes it's selfishness. 385 00:24:25,422 --> 00:24:27,714 I am not perfect. 386 00:24:28,381 --> 00:24:30,047 You know that. 387 00:24:31,005 --> 00:24:33,297 But I've spent my life trying to do better. 388 00:24:33,381 --> 00:24:35,381 You have not. 389 00:24:36,881 --> 00:24:38,756 But it is my wish for you. 390 00:24:40,214 --> 00:24:42,756 I don't know how you got out of this situation. 391 00:24:43,214 --> 00:24:47,089 I know you didn't deserve to, but you did. 392 00:24:47,172 --> 00:24:49,673 And I admire whatever it took. 393 00:24:50,422 --> 00:24:53,422 I just hope it didn't teach you the wrong lesson. 394 00:25:14,756 --> 00:25:17,172 Okay, this is gonna sound sick, 395 00:25:17,255 --> 00:25:19,381 because I'm actually in a lot of pain right now, 396 00:25:19,464 --> 00:25:22,673 due to the sheer weight and strain on my bladder, 397 00:25:22,756 --> 00:25:25,923 but, man, does this make me miss opiates. 398 00:25:28,464 --> 00:25:31,047 Because your bladder is trained from a very early age 399 00:25:31,130 --> 00:25:32,881 not to pee whenever it wants to, 400 00:25:32,964 --> 00:25:34,673 it needs permission from your brain. 401 00:25:34,756 --> 00:25:36,005 And when you're really high, 402 00:25:36,089 --> 00:25:39,089 your brain gets a little... lazy. 403 00:25:39,172 --> 00:25:41,547 Too lazy to say something. 404 00:25:41,631 --> 00:25:44,172 Come on. Breathe. 405 00:25:44,255 --> 00:25:46,089 Come on, please. 406 00:25:46,172 --> 00:25:49,464 It's probably why so many drug addicts die on toilets. 407 00:25:55,005 --> 00:25:58,172 The truth is, the last time I left this room, 408 00:25:58,255 --> 00:26:00,506 I didn't have the best experience. 409 00:26:22,798 --> 00:26:24,714 Sleeping all day? 410 00:26:25,506 --> 00:26:28,255 It's quite the life. 411 00:26:28,339 --> 00:26:32,255 Meet Rick. My mom's new boyfriend. 412 00:26:32,339 --> 00:26:34,923 If you were to ask Rick to describe himself, 413 00:26:35,005 --> 00:26:36,714 he'd say he was... 414 00:26:36,798 --> 00:26:38,214 "A romantic at heart. 415 00:26:38,297 --> 00:26:41,047 "I'm adventurous. I love to travel. 416 00:26:41,130 --> 00:26:43,255 "I love the outdoors... 417 00:26:43,339 --> 00:26:48,506 ...great art, great movies, great wine. Forever young." 418 00:26:55,714 --> 00:26:58,255 Sorry, I'm sorry. 419 00:26:58,339 --> 00:26:59,756 Oh. 420 00:26:59,839 --> 00:27:03,214 - I miss your dad. - Me, too. 421 00:27:03,297 --> 00:27:05,923 So, enter Rick. 422 00:27:06,214 --> 00:27:08,172 So... 423 00:27:09,964 --> 00:27:13,464 Your mom tells me that you have a new, uh, 424 00:27:13,547 --> 00:27:15,255 "best friend." 425 00:27:16,881 --> 00:27:19,047 What is that supposed to mean? 426 00:27:19,589 --> 00:27:21,255 That, you know. 427 00:27:22,214 --> 00:27:25,339 You got a new best friend. 428 00:27:28,798 --> 00:27:30,589 You know what, Rick? 429 00:27:32,047 --> 00:27:34,297 Why don't you go fuck yourself? 430 00:27:34,381 --> 00:27:36,339 How dare you speak to someone like that? 431 00:27:36,422 --> 00:27:37,964 Like that? Who? Rick. 432 00:27:38,047 --> 00:27:39,923 - Don't be a smart-ass. - Did I offend you? 433 00:27:40,005 --> 00:27:41,631 Apologize right now. 434 00:27:41,714 --> 00:27:43,881 In retrospect, I was a little cunt-y. 435 00:27:43,964 --> 00:27:47,297 But Rick does suck, and I was angry. 436 00:27:47,381 --> 00:27:49,089 For a lot of reasons. 437 00:27:49,172 --> 00:27:51,089 Rick, I sincerely apologize 438 00:27:51,172 --> 00:27:53,422 for telling you to go fuck yourself. 439 00:27:55,297 --> 00:27:57,673 What I really meant to say is that my mom can do better 440 00:27:57,756 --> 00:28:00,422 and I hate seeing you sit in the chair my dad sat at. 441 00:28:47,297 --> 00:28:49,255 If I am bipolar... 442 00:28:50,798 --> 00:28:54,172 I sure as shit prefer mania over depression. 443 00:28:56,214 --> 00:28:59,172 Yo, Fez. So you know how in every '90s thriller, right, 444 00:28:59,255 --> 00:29:02,589 Morgan Freeman plays, like, the same semi-psychic black cop. 445 00:29:02,673 --> 00:29:05,005 - Yeah. - So, I know that's kind of racist, 446 00:29:05,089 --> 00:29:06,756 but the point is, in every movie, 447 00:29:06,839 --> 00:29:10,172 he's always calmly putting the fucking pieces of the case together, 448 00:29:10,255 --> 00:29:12,172 while everybody else around him is fucking freaking out, 449 00:29:12,255 --> 00:29:14,506 saying, "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, Morgan. 450 00:29:14,589 --> 00:29:16,214 "You're... You're a fucking bad husband. 451 00:29:16,297 --> 00:29:17,589 You should fucking retire." 452 00:29:17,673 --> 00:29:21,881 But no. Morgan is fucking hyper-focused. 453 00:29:21,964 --> 00:29:24,381 Because he can see beyond the little details. 454 00:29:24,464 --> 00:29:26,673 He's looking for the big fuckin' picture. 455 00:29:26,756 --> 00:29:29,756 Because all of this shit? It's connected, Fez. 456 00:29:30,297 --> 00:29:34,422 And it is way bigger than any of us can even fucking see. 457 00:29:37,172 --> 00:29:38,923 The point is, that's me. 458 00:29:39,005 --> 00:29:42,172 Right now, that is fucking me. 459 00:29:42,255 --> 00:29:45,673 I can see everything so fucking clearly. 460 00:29:46,214 --> 00:29:48,255 I know what happened, I know why it happened, 461 00:29:48,339 --> 00:29:51,214 and I know what the fuck I'm gonna do about it. 462 00:29:52,881 --> 00:29:54,172 Word. 463 00:29:54,255 --> 00:29:55,631 Word. 464 00:29:56,464 --> 00:29:59,964 - She can't hear me, right? - She can't see you, either. 465 00:30:00,047 --> 00:30:03,214 Okay, good, 'cause this is, like, some real top-secret shit. 466 00:30:03,714 --> 00:30:07,547 Trust me, Rue, she not gonna gossip. 467 00:30:08,506 --> 00:30:10,214 Okay. 468 00:30:11,214 --> 00:30:14,214 - Do you still have that gun? - What gun? 469 00:30:14,923 --> 00:30:16,881 The one from the couch. 470 00:30:18,130 --> 00:30:21,214 I mean, I got a couple guns. 471 00:30:21,506 --> 00:30:23,339 Why do you have so many guns? 472 00:30:23,422 --> 00:30:25,172 My grandma. 473 00:30:28,047 --> 00:30:29,297 That's cool. 474 00:30:29,381 --> 00:30:31,839 What you worried about my guns for? 475 00:30:34,214 --> 00:30:37,464 Okay, well, I was thinking... 476 00:30:37,547 --> 00:30:42,714 that maybe you could use one to scare Nate Jacobs. 477 00:30:45,005 --> 00:30:46,964 Are you serious? 478 00:30:47,047 --> 00:30:50,172 I mean, I'm not not serious. 479 00:30:50,464 --> 00:30:52,255 Rue, that must be the dumbest shit 480 00:30:52,339 --> 00:30:53,923 you've said all fucking day. 481 00:30:54,005 --> 00:30:56,839 You don't have to fucking point it at him. You could just... 482 00:30:56,923 --> 00:31:00,255 You could, like... You could flash it. 483 00:31:00,339 --> 00:31:03,339 You really have lost your fuckin' mind, Rue. 484 00:31:03,422 --> 00:31:05,506 Fuck, it's a bad fucking idea, okay? 485 00:31:05,589 --> 00:31:08,422 I just was fucking spit balling, here. 486 00:31:10,047 --> 00:31:12,089 I mean, he fucked with me, he fucked with Jules. 487 00:31:12,172 --> 00:31:14,506 And I want fucking revenge. Okay? 488 00:31:14,589 --> 00:31:16,381 Sorry. 489 00:31:20,422 --> 00:31:22,506 Fuck. Mouse is here. 490 00:31:22,589 --> 00:31:26,589 The guy with the... - All right, so, stay in here. Be quiet... 491 00:31:26,673 --> 00:31:28,714 Fez, I can't... I can't stay in here. Like, I'm really... 492 00:31:28,798 --> 00:31:30,756 - Yes, the fuck you can. Shh! - I'm not good with awkward silences. 493 00:31:30,839 --> 00:31:33,381 Be quiet. Listen, I'm really serious right now. 494 00:31:33,464 --> 00:31:35,798 You just need to sit your manic ass down, 495 00:31:35,881 --> 00:31:38,381 and be quiet for five fuckin' minutes, Rue. 496 00:31:38,464 --> 00:31:40,130 I'm not fuckin' playin' with you. 497 00:31:40,214 --> 00:31:43,964 Sit down and shut the fuck up. 498 00:31:59,464 --> 00:32:01,464 Okay. 499 00:32:01,547 --> 00:32:03,673 So fuckin' weird. 500 00:32:14,714 --> 00:32:16,339 Psst. 501 00:32:18,589 --> 00:32:19,881 Psst. 502 00:32:23,339 --> 00:32:24,339 Psst. 503 00:32:25,422 --> 00:32:26,881 Yo, Rue. 504 00:32:28,714 --> 00:32:30,339 Rue. 505 00:32:30,422 --> 00:32:32,172 Rue, I'm so lonely. 506 00:32:32,255 --> 00:32:34,798 Me, too. Don't forget about me. 507 00:32:34,881 --> 00:32:38,589 That old lady? She doesn't even know we exist. 508 00:32:38,673 --> 00:32:40,798 All; Rue! 509 00:32:40,881 --> 00:32:43,923 Eat us all. 510 00:32:44,005 --> 00:32:44,923 - Eat... - Us... 511 00:32:45,005 --> 00:32:45,881 - All! - Eat... 512 00:32:45,964 --> 00:32:46,881 - Us... - All! 513 00:32:47,005 --> 00:32:49,464 Eat us all! Eat us all! 514 00:32:54,881 --> 00:32:57,714 Yo, I'm gonna need you to start moving some weight. 515 00:32:59,214 --> 00:33:02,464 Yo, I'm just trying to keep it low-key over here, man. 516 00:33:02,547 --> 00:33:04,339 And I'm trying to make fuckin' money. 517 00:33:04,422 --> 00:33:06,839 Even if wanted all this shit, bruh, 518 00:33:06,923 --> 00:33:08,964 I don't got the money for all this, man. 519 00:33:09,047 --> 00:33:11,839 That's why you in luck. I'm gonna front it to you. 520 00:33:11,923 --> 00:33:15,089 Ten percent on the vig, and I'll collect in a month. 521 00:33:17,130 --> 00:33:19,297 I'm not tryin' to do all that shit, man. 522 00:33:21,172 --> 00:33:23,047 I ain't asking, bruh. 523 00:33:23,589 --> 00:33:25,673 Step yo shit up. 524 00:33:29,172 --> 00:33:32,255 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. 525 00:33:32,339 --> 00:33:35,714 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. 526 00:33:35,798 --> 00:33:37,089 One... 527 00:34:12,923 --> 00:34:14,506 The other thing about depression 528 00:34:14,589 --> 00:34:16,714 is it kind of collapses time. 529 00:34:16,798 --> 00:34:18,589 Rue, are you listening? 530 00:34:20,798 --> 00:34:23,964 Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together 531 00:34:24,047 --> 00:34:27,422 to create one endless and suffocating loop. 532 00:34:36,130 --> 00:34:38,089 So you find yourself trying to remember 533 00:34:38,172 --> 00:34:40,589 the things that made you happy. 534 00:34:45,005 --> 00:34:47,464 Do you want to get closer? Yeah. 535 00:34:47,547 --> 00:34:50,005 But slowly, your brain begins to erase 536 00:34:50,089 --> 00:34:52,964 every memory that ever brought you joy. 537 00:34:58,798 --> 00:35:00,798 And eventually, 538 00:35:00,881 --> 00:35:04,673 all you can think about is how life has always been this way. 539 00:35:08,673 --> 00:35:11,714 And will only continue to be this way. 540 00:35:15,923 --> 00:35:20,506 Previously, on Love Island... 541 00:35:20,589 --> 00:35:22,631 Grab the amazing-ness 542 00:35:22,714 --> 00:35:24,589 that you have with Josh by the balls. 543 00:35:24,673 --> 00:35:27,631 I wonder if Jules is having fun. 544 00:35:27,714 --> 00:35:29,673 Stay clear of the tracks... 545 00:35:35,255 --> 00:35:37,214 ♪ I don't want to kid around ♪ 546 00:35:37,297 --> 00:35:39,089 ♪ Like a man who's dying ♪ 547 00:35:39,172 --> 00:35:43,547 ♪ Grinning at the end, Wondering if you'll always be mine ♪ 548 00:35:45,839 --> 00:35:47,547 ♪ Be mine ♪ 549 00:35:50,297 --> 00:35:53,964 ♪ I don't wanna spite God with my given fear ♪ 550 00:35:54,047 --> 00:35:58,339 ♪ I just want euphoria, the more you're here ♪ 551 00:35:58,422 --> 00:36:00,714 Oh, I missed you! 552 00:36:01,589 --> 00:36:03,589 So how are the suburbs treating you? 553 00:36:03,673 --> 00:36:05,506 They're claustrophobic. 554 00:36:05,589 --> 00:36:08,255 Yeah, how do you like it? How you doing? 555 00:36:08,339 --> 00:36:12,547 I don't know. It's been a weird, weird-ass year. 556 00:36:13,631 --> 00:36:15,339 Weird in what way? 557 00:36:15,422 --> 00:36:17,631 Weird in every way. 558 00:36:17,714 --> 00:36:20,798 Shit. You make some good friends, at least? 559 00:36:20,881 --> 00:36:23,172 - Yeah, I got one. - Yeah? 560 00:36:23,255 --> 00:36:25,839 But it's, like, complicated. 561 00:36:25,923 --> 00:36:27,381 Oh. 562 00:36:27,464 --> 00:36:30,339 Well, are you friends, or are you a little bit more, 563 00:36:30,422 --> 00:36:32,673 - like a special kind of friend? - Both, I guess? 564 00:36:32,756 --> 00:36:34,255 - Aah. - Yeah. 565 00:36:34,339 --> 00:36:36,881 Okay. What, are you in love with him or something? 566 00:36:36,964 --> 00:36:39,881 - Her, not him. - Oh! 567 00:36:39,964 --> 00:36:41,631 - Ooh, a little plot twist. Okay! - Yeah. 568 00:36:41,714 --> 00:36:44,381 - No room for hetero-normativity in here. - My bad. 569 00:36:45,255 --> 00:36:47,422 So... what? 570 00:36:47,506 --> 00:36:50,673 - I don't know. I don't know what it is. - Yeah. 571 00:36:50,756 --> 00:36:53,381 It's not, like, great right now. 572 00:36:56,964 --> 00:37:00,464 I'm not exactly, like, in the best place. 573 00:37:02,589 --> 00:37:04,631 Why? What's going on? 574 00:37:07,631 --> 00:37:10,589 I came here so I wouldn't have to think about it. 575 00:37:13,255 --> 00:37:14,798 Understood. 576 00:37:17,631 --> 00:37:19,881 ♪ What the fuck, what the fuck ♪ 577 00:37:19,964 --> 00:37:24,756 ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪ 578 00:37:25,422 --> 00:37:30,089 ♪ Ain't a pill that I didn't take ♪ 579 00:37:30,506 --> 00:37:35,589 ♪ Just a lifetime, it's been a long day ♪ 580 00:37:36,089 --> 00:37:40,506 ♪ 'Cause I'm asleep when... ♪ 581 00:37:41,673 --> 00:37:43,005 Oh! 582 00:37:48,172 --> 00:37:49,756 ♪ Camouflage ♪ 583 00:37:49,839 --> 00:37:51,255 ♪ Don't forget your hashtag ♪ 584 00:37:51,339 --> 00:37:54,214 - This one? - No, I'm one more up. 585 00:37:58,631 --> 00:38:00,506 ♪ You're a dead man ♪ 586 00:38:03,964 --> 00:38:07,089 ♪ You gonna run them They don't ever run you ♪ 587 00:38:07,172 --> 00:38:08,964 Yo, Anna. 588 00:38:10,839 --> 00:38:12,297 - Hey. - Anna, 589 00:38:12,381 --> 00:38:14,631 someone I want you to meet. 590 00:38:15,255 --> 00:38:17,881 Hi. I'm Jules. 591 00:38:19,172 --> 00:38:20,881 I know. 592 00:38:21,714 --> 00:38:24,047 - Like it? - Did y'all make these? 593 00:38:24,130 --> 00:38:28,297 Our friend did. I mean, are you guys gonna go out? 594 00:38:28,798 --> 00:38:31,339 Uh, Anna's always trying to put makeup on me. 595 00:38:31,422 --> 00:38:33,297 So awkward. 596 00:38:33,381 --> 00:38:36,214 ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪ 597 00:38:39,881 --> 00:38:42,547 I remember walking out of Sears 598 00:38:42,631 --> 00:38:45,964 with my first pair of heels in my backpack. Cute. 599 00:38:46,047 --> 00:38:50,130 And my heart was fucking racing. 600 00:38:50,214 --> 00:38:53,297 And I got home, and went straight to my room, 601 00:38:53,381 --> 00:38:56,005 locked the door, put 'em on... 602 00:38:56,089 --> 00:38:59,089 And, I just... 603 00:38:59,172 --> 00:39:00,756 felt like... 604 00:39:00,839 --> 00:39:02,964 I was collecting... 605 00:39:03,047 --> 00:39:09,089 herbs, or making potions in order to up my manna, you know? 606 00:39:10,547 --> 00:39:11,881 Like, it started with that, 607 00:39:11,964 --> 00:39:14,339 and then it was clothes, and then it was... 608 00:39:14,422 --> 00:39:18,339 makeup, and eventually hormones. 609 00:39:18,422 --> 00:39:22,631 Um, I just kind of kept leveling up. 610 00:39:23,839 --> 00:39:27,172 So, what level are you at now? 611 00:39:27,255 --> 00:39:29,297 I don't know. 612 00:39:29,381 --> 00:39:34,631 But I definitely haven't reached my full power. 613 00:39:37,297 --> 00:39:39,839 But you date guys, right? 614 00:39:39,923 --> 00:39:42,506 Date isn't really the right word. 615 00:39:42,589 --> 00:39:44,839 What she means to say is that she's a slut. 616 00:39:44,923 --> 00:39:48,214 - Fuck you! - What, it's not an insult! 617 00:39:48,297 --> 00:39:51,506 - I mean... - But you normally hook up with guys. 618 00:39:52,964 --> 00:39:54,589 Yeah, but... 619 00:39:54,673 --> 00:39:57,714 my relationship to men is weird. 620 00:39:57,798 --> 00:40:01,297 - Like, how? - In my head, it's like... 621 00:40:03,923 --> 00:40:06,255 If I can conquer men, 622 00:40:06,339 --> 00:40:09,464 then I can conquer femininity. 623 00:40:11,464 --> 00:40:14,339 Why do you need a guy to make you feel more feminine? 624 00:40:17,631 --> 00:40:18,964 Hmm? 625 00:40:20,798 --> 00:40:23,631 We'll circle back to that one. 626 00:40:26,714 --> 00:40:29,881 - So have you? - Have I what? 627 00:40:29,964 --> 00:40:32,047 Conquered femininity? 628 00:40:33,547 --> 00:40:35,339 I don't know. 629 00:40:35,798 --> 00:40:38,589 But, it's not like I even want to conquer it. 630 00:40:38,673 --> 00:40:41,422 It's like I want to fuckin' obliterate it. 631 00:40:41,506 --> 00:40:45,422 And then move on to the next level. Mmm. 632 00:40:45,506 --> 00:40:48,297 And the next, and the next. 633 00:40:48,381 --> 00:40:51,422 Level up. Level up! 634 00:40:51,506 --> 00:40:55,547 Yeah. I don't really know what the means, or looks like, but... 635 00:40:56,839 --> 00:40:59,381 - I want it. - Queerness is infinite. 636 00:41:01,339 --> 00:41:03,839 Okay, look at me. 637 00:41:05,339 --> 00:41:08,214 Yeah. You look adorable. 638 00:41:09,506 --> 00:41:11,547 Stop. 639 00:41:17,673 --> 00:41:19,589 I'm pregnant. 640 00:41:21,130 --> 00:41:22,422 What? 641 00:41:24,214 --> 00:41:27,005 Are you for real that you're 100 percent pregnant? 642 00:41:29,297 --> 00:41:30,339 Yeah. 643 00:41:38,923 --> 00:41:40,839 I... 644 00:41:42,714 --> 00:41:44,589 I'm sorry, uh... 645 00:41:46,005 --> 00:41:47,881 Are you all right? 646 00:41:50,631 --> 00:41:53,756 Yeah, I'm... I'm just a little bit nervous. 647 00:41:55,589 --> 00:41:57,381 Nervous about what? 648 00:41:59,297 --> 00:42:01,089 About what you're gonna say. 649 00:42:07,172 --> 00:42:10,047 You're not really thinking about having this kid, are you? 650 00:42:14,089 --> 00:42:16,422 I really love you, McKay. 651 00:42:16,923 --> 00:42:18,005 Yeah, I love you, too, 652 00:42:18,089 --> 00:42:20,089 but I'm doing a lot of shit right now. 653 00:42:21,422 --> 00:42:24,005 I'm in the middle of school right now. 654 00:42:24,089 --> 00:42:26,589 It's a big fuckin' responsibility, Cassie. 655 00:42:29,005 --> 00:42:31,923 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life? 656 00:42:37,005 --> 00:42:38,506 What the fuck? 657 00:42:39,255 --> 00:42:41,422 My parents are gonna kill me. 658 00:42:41,506 --> 00:42:42,631 My coach is gonna kill me. 659 00:42:42,714 --> 00:42:44,881 My parents are gonna fucking kill me. 660 00:42:44,964 --> 00:42:46,506 Fuck. 661 00:42:49,047 --> 00:42:52,047 Cass, I don't even think you wanna have this baby, okay? 662 00:42:52,130 --> 00:42:54,464 It's not a... It's not a fuckin' fairy tale. Like... 663 00:42:54,547 --> 00:42:58,089 It may seem all cute and cuddly to you, but this is real shit. 664 00:42:58,798 --> 00:43:00,506 I'm not even ready to be a dad. 665 00:43:00,589 --> 00:43:03,673 I don't know if that's selfish to say or whatever, but... 666 00:43:03,756 --> 00:43:05,964 children are fuckin' scary. 667 00:43:08,631 --> 00:43:11,005 You wanted to talk about it, so here we are, we're talking about it. 668 00:43:11,089 --> 00:43:12,839 But I say we don't do it. 669 00:43:14,798 --> 00:43:18,339 I'm not saying I'm gonna have a baby. 670 00:43:22,547 --> 00:43:25,798 I just wanted to dream about it for a minute. 671 00:43:50,839 --> 00:43:54,214 You'll make the best mother on the planet one day. 672 00:43:56,881 --> 00:43:59,381 I say that without a doubt. 673 00:44:07,714 --> 00:44:10,547 Hello? 674 00:44:12,214 --> 00:44:15,214 For some reason your screen is black. Should I call you back? 675 00:44:15,297 --> 00:44:18,047 No, I prefer to keep it that way. 676 00:44:18,130 --> 00:44:20,297 Oh. Okay. 677 00:44:20,381 --> 00:44:24,714 - You drive a hard bargain. - Yeah, well, a girl's got to eat. 678 00:44:24,798 --> 00:44:26,631 300 for thirty minutes. 679 00:44:26,714 --> 00:44:31,130 - You should have asked for more. - Really? 680 00:44:31,214 --> 00:44:35,589 Let me see your whole body. Stand up. 681 00:44:42,589 --> 00:44:45,547 Yes. 682 00:44:45,631 --> 00:44:47,422 Keep going. 683 00:44:48,464 --> 00:44:49,964 Yes. 684 00:44:51,422 --> 00:44:53,464 Fantastic. 685 00:45:04,964 --> 00:45:06,964 Are you nervous? 686 00:45:07,047 --> 00:45:10,547 - I-I-I... - I mean, I don't usually, um... 687 00:45:10,631 --> 00:45:12,297 undress. 688 00:45:12,381 --> 00:45:16,589 But I am special. Right? 689 00:45:19,047 --> 00:45:20,589 Yes. 690 00:45:21,756 --> 00:45:23,964 Then say it. 691 00:45:25,631 --> 00:45:27,714 You're special. 692 00:45:27,798 --> 00:45:31,464 So, get undressed . 693 00:45:48,631 --> 00:45:51,798 Oh, wow. 694 00:45:58,964 --> 00:46:02,130 You're beautiful. 695 00:46:05,798 --> 00:46:07,673 ♪ Boom, bitch, boom, bitch ♪ 696 00:46:07,756 --> 00:46:10,422 ♪ We on the move bitch, ready set go ♪ 697 00:46:10,506 --> 00:46:12,756 ♪ Ready set go, Ready, set, go ♪ 698 00:46:12,839 --> 00:46:14,714 ♪ Aim for the stars, if we miss ♪ 699 00:46:14,798 --> 00:46:17,422 ♪ We going to the moon, bitch, ready set go ♪ 700 00:46:17,506 --> 00:46:20,214 ♪ Ready set go, Ready... ♪ 701 00:46:20,839 --> 00:46:23,798 Can you get me a mango La Croix? Um-hmm. 702 00:46:23,881 --> 00:46:27,214 - And those cherry rolling papers? - Anything else? 703 00:46:37,756 --> 00:46:40,381 - What up, Fez? - What's up, man? 704 00:46:40,464 --> 00:46:44,089 Yo, can I get, uh, two of the rolling papers, too, bruh? 705 00:46:45,756 --> 00:46:47,464 Yo, man. 706 00:46:47,547 --> 00:46:51,464 I don't know what's been going on with you, Rue, and Jules and shit. 707 00:46:52,172 --> 00:46:56,255 But you should know, I really do care about her. 708 00:47:00,798 --> 00:47:03,047 Aren't you, like, her drug dealer? 709 00:47:03,839 --> 00:47:05,422 Nah, man. 710 00:47:06,964 --> 00:47:09,214 What, are you in a relationship? 711 00:47:10,297 --> 00:47:12,673 Nah, bruh, that's like, my family. 712 00:47:12,756 --> 00:47:14,964 So it's platonic. 713 00:47:15,047 --> 00:47:16,714 Look, man, 714 00:47:16,798 --> 00:47:20,422 all I'm saying is, leave her and her friends alone. 715 00:47:22,005 --> 00:47:23,464 Is that a threat? 716 00:47:25,506 --> 00:47:27,964 Nah, I'm just telling you. 717 00:47:28,339 --> 00:47:29,923 Or what? 718 00:47:30,881 --> 00:47:33,756 We're not gonna be having this conversation. 719 00:47:43,547 --> 00:47:45,589 Fezco, let's get this straight. 720 00:47:46,547 --> 00:47:48,381 You're, like, half a retard. 721 00:47:48,464 --> 00:47:50,923 You dropped out of school at 20, and now... 722 00:47:51,005 --> 00:47:53,172 you're a gangster. 723 00:47:53,255 --> 00:47:57,089 What are you, like, fucking Tony Montana? What's the plan? Hmm? 724 00:47:57,172 --> 00:48:00,422 You gonna be living in a mansion, fuckin' pet tigers and shit? 725 00:48:02,005 --> 00:48:04,130 Go fuck yourself. 726 00:48:05,214 --> 00:48:07,130 Listen, bruh. 727 00:48:08,547 --> 00:48:12,631 All I'm sayin', you keep fuckin' with Rue and her friends, 728 00:48:12,714 --> 00:48:14,964 and I'mma kill you. 729 00:48:17,589 --> 00:48:20,214 It's gonna be $5.75, playboy. 730 00:48:39,464 --> 00:48:43,964 An adult bladder can hold two cups of urine. 731 00:48:44,047 --> 00:48:46,839 But if you're telling your bladder to hold off because, say, 732 00:48:46,923 --> 00:48:49,673 you're in the worst depression of your fucking life, 733 00:48:49,756 --> 00:48:52,047 your bladder will eventually fill. 734 00:48:54,297 --> 00:48:56,798 And what begins to happen is... 735 00:48:56,881 --> 00:48:58,756 all of the toxins that your kidneys 736 00:48:58,839 --> 00:49:00,255 have pushed into your bladder 737 00:49:00,339 --> 00:49:02,673 begin to travel back into your kidneys. 738 00:49:07,130 --> 00:49:08,422 Fuck. 739 00:49:08,506 --> 00:49:11,130 I know what you're thinking. Rue, this is insane. 740 00:49:11,214 --> 00:49:14,005 Don't get a kidney infection. Walk to the bathroom. 741 00:49:15,172 --> 00:49:18,798 Trust me, I'm thinking the same fuckin' thing. 742 00:49:22,255 --> 00:49:23,964 Like a little pot? 743 00:50:30,756 --> 00:50:33,005 ♪ I'm not in love ♪ 744 00:50:33,089 --> 00:50:35,422 - You remind me of her. - Who? 745 00:50:35,506 --> 00:50:37,130 ♪ So don't forget it ♪ 746 00:50:37,214 --> 00:50:39,339 My best friend. 747 00:50:39,422 --> 00:50:41,964 So what's she like? 748 00:50:42,047 --> 00:50:45,631 - Honestly? - Kind of a mess. 749 00:50:45,714 --> 00:50:47,422 So I'm a mess? 750 00:50:48,255 --> 00:50:51,172 - Yeah. - How am I a mess? 751 00:50:52,798 --> 00:50:55,673 I don't know yet. 752 00:50:55,756 --> 00:50:57,964 ♪ Don't think you've got it made ♪ 753 00:51:00,130 --> 00:51:04,464 - ♪ I'm not in love, oh, no ♪ - I think I'm really high. 754 00:51:04,547 --> 00:51:08,130 ♪ It's because... ♪ 755 00:51:08,214 --> 00:51:10,506 - Should I text her? - No. 756 00:51:31,798 --> 00:51:33,923 You only get one more. 757 00:51:35,631 --> 00:51:37,422 Fuck. 758 00:52:26,381 --> 00:52:27,756 Jules. 759 00:52:28,839 --> 00:52:30,339 What are you doing here? 760 00:52:30,422 --> 00:52:33,047 - You texted me. - I did? 761 00:52:33,381 --> 00:52:35,381 Did you not want me to come? 762 00:52:37,422 --> 00:52:39,923 You here alone? 763 00:52:40,005 --> 00:52:45,089 ♪ It hides a nasty stain that's lying there ♪ 764 00:52:45,172 --> 00:52:46,881 No, no, no, no, no. 765 00:52:46,964 --> 00:52:50,839 ♪ So don't you ask me ♪ 766 00:52:50,923 --> 00:52:52,923 ♪ To give it back ♪ 767 00:52:53,005 --> 00:52:54,714 I'm scared of you, Nate. 768 00:52:54,798 --> 00:52:57,297 I'm sorry. For everything. 769 00:52:58,839 --> 00:53:01,130 I'm sorry for hurting you. 770 00:53:02,923 --> 00:53:04,339 You... 771 00:53:04,422 --> 00:53:08,005 you were the most beautiful person that I've ever known. 772 00:53:08,089 --> 00:53:10,547 I'm Tyler. 773 00:53:10,631 --> 00:53:13,964 I'm the person that you fell in love with. 774 00:53:14,047 --> 00:53:16,589 I wanna kill you. 775 00:53:16,673 --> 00:53:19,089 I'm yours. I'm all yours. 776 00:53:19,172 --> 00:53:24,255 ♪ I'm not in love... ♪ 777 00:53:32,631 --> 00:53:34,798 You're a pussy. 778 00:53:34,881 --> 00:53:37,089 You're a bitch. 779 00:53:39,422 --> 00:53:42,089 And I wish the whole fucking world could know. 780 00:54:08,673 --> 00:54:11,255 I know this isn't gonna end well. 781 00:54:31,631 --> 00:54:33,130 Hello? 782 00:54:35,130 --> 00:54:37,089 Yeah, I'd like to report a crime. 783 00:54:52,130 --> 00:54:53,798 Mom. 784 00:54:57,297 --> 00:54:59,172 I think I need your help. 785 00:55:15,798 --> 00:55:16,964 Come here. 786 00:55:17,422 --> 00:55:20,464 Come here. It's okay. It's okay. I love you so much. 787 00:55:20,547 --> 00:55:24,214 - I love you so much. - You're so beautiful. 788 00:55:39,089 --> 00:55:40,339 Fuck! 789 00:55:40,422 --> 00:55:42,214 East Highland PD! 790 00:55:42,297 --> 00:55:43,839 - Open the door! - Come on, bro. 791 00:55:43,923 --> 00:55:45,506 Hurry the fuck up out there! 792 00:55:45,589 --> 00:55:47,798 We know you're in there. Open up! Fuck! 793 00:55:47,881 --> 00:55:49,839 Goddamn it! 794 00:55:50,381 --> 00:55:52,756 - Fuck, bro. - What the fuck, man? 795 00:55:52,839 --> 00:55:55,089 Come on, bruh. Hurry up, for real, man. 796 00:55:57,214 --> 00:55:59,798 - Unlock the door! - Open up, now! 797 00:55:59,881 --> 00:56:01,839 Goddamn it! 798 00:56:10,255 --> 00:56:12,756 Rue, what's wrong? 799 00:56:19,339 --> 00:56:21,422 Okay, baby. Come on. 800 00:56:22,089 --> 00:56:24,255 Come on. Come on. 801 00:56:25,214 --> 00:56:26,547 I had a therapist once 802 00:56:26,631 --> 00:56:29,255 who said that these states will wax and wane. 803 00:56:29,339 --> 00:56:30,881 Which gave my mother relief, 804 00:56:30,964 --> 00:56:33,047 because it meant that in the bad times, 805 00:56:33,130 --> 00:56:35,255 there would be good times. 806 00:56:38,339 --> 00:56:39,714 But it also gave her anxiety 807 00:56:39,798 --> 00:56:41,839 because it meant that in the good times, 808 00:56:41,923 --> 00:56:44,339 there would be bad times. 809 00:56:44,422 --> 00:56:45,589 It always confused me, 810 00:56:45,673 --> 00:56:48,255 because I didn't really know what it meant. 811 00:56:48,589 --> 00:56:50,506 It's okay, baby. 812 00:56:51,756 --> 00:56:53,297 It's okay. 813 00:56:54,214 --> 00:56:55,798 But it did sound a lot calmer 814 00:56:55,881 --> 00:56:58,130 than the way I would describe it. 815 00:57:07,798 --> 00:57:11,339 I think I need to go back on medication. 816 00:57:18,673 --> 00:57:23,673 - There you go. - How you feel? Okay? 817 00:57:29,798 --> 00:57:32,631 I know you're feeling low right now, baby. 818 00:57:32,714 --> 00:57:36,464 But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better. 819 00:57:39,005 --> 00:57:40,964 It does. 820 00:57:43,005 --> 00:57:44,506 It does. 821 00:57:48,255 --> 00:57:50,172 Granted, I didn't realize until later 822 00:57:50,255 --> 00:57:53,422 what waxing and waning implied. 823 00:57:53,506 --> 00:57:56,297 That these feelings were fixed and constant 824 00:57:56,381 --> 00:57:59,506 and would never end for the rest of my life. 825 00:58:52,047 --> 00:58:53,172 ♪ Every single night ♪ 826 00:58:53,255 --> 00:58:55,964 ♪ I endure the flight of little wings ♪ 827 00:58:56,047 --> 00:58:58,839 ♪ Of white-flamed butterflies in my brain ♪ 828 00:58:58,923 --> 00:59:02,798 ♪ These ideas of mine percolate the mind ♪ 829 00:59:02,881 --> 00:59:04,214 ♪ Trickle down my spine ♪ 830 00:59:04,297 --> 00:59:06,506 ♪ Swarm the belly, swelling to a blaze ♪ 831 00:59:06,589 --> 00:59:09,923 ♪ That's where the pain comes in ♪ 832 00:59:10,005 --> 00:59:13,756 ♪ Like a second skeleton ♪ 833 00:59:13,839 --> 00:59:17,589 ♪ Trying to fit beneath the skin ♪ 834 00:59:17,673 --> 00:59:20,839 ♪ I can't fit the feelings in ♪ 835 00:59:20,923 --> 00:59:24,255 ♪ Oh, every single night's alight ♪ 836 00:59:24,339 --> 00:59:29,214 ♪ With my brai... ♪ 837 00:59:29,297 --> 00:59:32,714 ♪ ...ain ♪ 838 00:59:32,798 --> 00:59:36,589 ♪ What'd I say to her, why'd I say to her ♪ 839 00:59:36,673 --> 00:59:38,297 ♪ What does she think of me ♪ 840 00:59:38,381 --> 00:59:40,255 ♪ That I'm not what I ought to be ♪ 841 00:59:40,339 --> 00:59:42,297 ♪ That I'm what I try not to be ♪ 842 00:59:42,381 --> 00:59:45,673 ♪ It's got to be somebody else's fault ♪ 843 00:59:45,756 --> 00:59:47,798 ♪ I can't get caught ♪ 844 00:59:47,881 --> 00:59:51,673 ♪ If what I am is what I am 'cause I does what I does ♪ 845 00:59:51,756 --> 00:59:53,214 ♪ Then brother, get back ♪ 846 00:59:53,297 --> 00:59:55,089 ♪ 'Cause my breast's gonna bust open ♪ 847 00:59:55,172 --> 00:59:59,089 ♪ The rib is the shell and the heart is a yolk ♪ 848 00:59:59,172 --> 01:00:03,339 ♪ And I just made a meal for us both to choke on ♪ 849 01:00:03,422 --> 01:00:06,172 ♪ Every single night's a fight ♪ 850 01:00:06,255 --> 01:00:11,005 ♪ With my brai... ♪ 851 01:00:11,089 --> 01:00:14,756 ♪ ...ain ♪ 852 01:00:14,839 --> 01:00:18,631 ♪ I just want to ♪ 853 01:00:18,714 --> 01:00:22,422 ♪ Feel everything ♪ 854 01:00:22,506 --> 01:00:26,172 ♪ I just want to ♪ 855 01:00:26,255 --> 01:00:30,297 ♪ Feel everything ♪ 856 01:00:49,631 --> 01:00:50,431 Last night, 857 01:00:50,881 --> 01:00:52,381 I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born. 858 01:00:53,839 --> 01:00:55,506 What if I heard a voice... 859 01:00:57,297 --> 01:00:59,005 Some narrator who said... 860 01:01:01,506 --> 01:01:03,172 "Here's what's going to happen." 861 01:01:05,673 --> 01:01:08,172 ♪ Doing it all for love ♪ 862 01:01:08,631 --> 01:01:11,881 ♪ Doing it all ♪ 863 01:01:12,464 --> 01:01:16,673 ♪ Doing it al for love ♪ 864 01:01:22,547 --> 01:01:24,047 ♪ I'm gonna disappear ♪ 865 01:01:24,130 --> 01:01:26,589 Obviously, there's something wrong with her! 866 01:01:31,089 --> 01:01:33,339 But all this happened because I left. 867 01:01:37,714 --> 01:01:40,756 ♪ Doing it all for love ♪